Wednesday, May 22, 2013

My First MS Blog: I love my dogs, but....

My First MS Blog: I love my dogs, but....: So pet ownership has always been my thing. I have no kids by choice so my dogs and cats are my family. In fact I am a sucker for any animal ...

I love my dogs, but....

So pet ownership has always been my thing. I have no kids by choice so my dogs and cats are my family. In fact I am a sucker for any animal and would save them all if I could. My mom always said I should have a farm and just rescue animals. Actually if I ever won the lottery animal rescue support would be my #1 thing.

I have 2 and a 1/2 huskies. Daiys is 10, Gypsy is 1 and Jessie 9 (the 1/2- Daisys daughter mixed with a Springer Spaniel- don't ask lol) are my dogs. Then I also have 3 cats. Before the grand decision to get Gypsy, in hopes to keep the older dogs "young", traveling was not much of an issue. The older dogs don't mind laying around all day with minor human interaction or we would take them with us. With a puppy that all changes.

So where I am going with this is I could not live without my animals, but yesterday I realized how hard it is to travel with having 3. My fiance and I were planning a trip to my mom's (6 hrs away) for the long holiday weekend coming up. We had a plan. His daughter would come and dog sit and I would finally be able to go home for some family time that I only get maybe twice a year. I have not seen my mom since my diagnosis and quite frankly I am in need of some mom time!

Well I return home yesterday after an interesting evening shoe shopping (see yesterdays blog for a laugh) and my finace tells me that his daughter is going to the beach with friends and cannot dog sit. What to do?  Stay home and bag the trip! Sad face and disappointment insert here.  For a second we said "well we could pile them all in the car for a 6 hr ride!" NOT! The 2 older ones LOVE going to grandmas but there is no way Gypsy would be manageable for such a long ride, not to mention what she would do in my poor moms house! It would be more stress than worth it!

So, you may ask, why not go alone? Well I could but with the fatigue that I fight daily I am concerned about a 6 hr drive alone on a busy holiday weekend. My level of alertness really diminishes as the day goes on.

His daughter is really our only saving grace when it comes to dog sitting. In thinking about this moving forward I realize our days our numbered if not over. She is a Jr. in college and will be moving away after this summer.  Will I ever get home again? I hope so but not really sure to be honest. My family does the best they can and come to my house about once a year, but it's so not enough sometimes.

So I am quite sad today as I ponder this. The only solution is for someone to actually live here while we are gone to take care of the animals. Its a big job! Just like kids I want to make sure they are safe and taken car of properly. And that Gypsy does not eat the house while we are gone!

So I will continue to think about this and see if a solution comes to me. I look over at their sweet faces right now and could not imagine life with out them, but MY family is also a need. Life is short. Anything can happen. There must be a solution.......

Tuesday, May 21, 2013

My First MS Blog: Excuse me....this may sound weird.....

My First MS Blog: Excuse me....this may sound weird.....: Ok so the highlight of my day began (at the end of my day) with those exact words. Let me explain. After work today I went on a mission to...

Excuse me....this may sound weird.....

Ok so the highlight of my day began (at the end of my day) with those exact words. Let me explain.

After work today I went on a mission to find some sandals for summer. I won't get into why I need more shoes, but I was desperate. I got rid of most of mine after last year blah, blah, blah...Annnnyyywayyyy.

So, I go to the mall to hit up Macy's. A little note about our mall, it is very desolate and run down so it is not a populated place most times. I walk in the front doors and happen to notice a nice looking younger man walking out. Just as you would notice anyone passing you in public, nothing to make note of. No eye contact, no smiles, just I happened to noctie someone walking out the door next to me as I was walking in. Happens all the time.

So I walk into Macy's and immediatly begin looking at the clothes which is NOT why I went there, but anyway....I am browsing the dresses and hear "Excuse me", I look up and this very attractive man is standing in front of me. YES, the one who was walking out as I was walking in. So I look up and he proceeds to say "I know this may sound weird but I was wondeing if I could have your number and give you al call sometime."  AAAWWWW!  So I politely say (gushing I am sure because, aaww how flattering) "well thank you but I am sorry to say that I am married."  So I am smiling and I thank him for the offer. But yet this young buck does not give up that easy, due to my striking beauty (lol) and proceeds to say "Well maybe we could just go for drinks as friends."  Again..aaawww! So I say "well I am really sorry but I am married so I don't think so, but thank you again for asking." We smile, I giggle and he kindly walks away. Poor guy!

So after this I feel so good! Mind you, this man had to be at most 26 years old, good looking, polite and if I was avaliable I would have considered it based on first glance. After deeper conversation I probably would have found out he is jobless, lives with his parents and has a 2 year old kid, and plays video games like it is his job, but luckly I did not have to go there. But what really made me laugh is I am 37 yers old dude! Bless his heart for thinking I was his age. (I do think I don't look a day past 30 if I do say so myself, lol). And to think that I was so striking that he had to come back into that mall and follow me to Macy's! Now for those of you who know me know I say this very toung as cheek as I come down from my high of being asked out by a complete stranger!

So it made my day! It's nice to be noticed by others! And I did tell a white lie as I am not really married by law! But why get into a big story of fiances, dogs, house etc! Don't want to bore the guy to death!

The bigger issues is, did I find my shoes! Well not at Macy's! Not a Kohl's! Not at DSW! But at the last stop- Marshalls! I'm all set now. So if anything this little flattery got me through multiple stores and 2 hrs of dreadful shopping.

I hope he finds a nice girl! Poor guy! Hey, that takes guts!

Monday, May 20, 2013

My First MS Blog: ANNNDD it's Monday again.....

My First MS Blog: ANNNDD it's Monday again.....: Ok, so I did not complete my weekend list as I had hoped. But I did get a lot of it completed so I am pretty proud of that. Saturday I had a...

ANNNDD it's Monday again.....

Ok, so I did not complete my weekend list as I had hoped. But I did get a lot of it completed so I am pretty proud of that. Saturday I had a burst of energy and then Sunday not so much, I took a long nap. Oh well! :)

Today I FINALLY received the Nuvigil 250 in the mail from my doc. It only took them a week to send me my samples as I am slowly falling into a fatigue coma! Today was much of the same as I it the wall by 1:30pm. So tomorrow I will take the higher dose and see if it helps! Fingers crossed!

Sunday I was a bit unnerved as I was getting some unusual tingeling and numbness in my left leg and hand. It lasted a few hours but when I woke up today it was gone. So crisis averted! If it lasts, that is when you know you have a problem.

Well it was shot time a little bit ago so I will wait for that to settle in and get comfy for the rest of the night and relax!

Friday, May 17, 2013

My First MS Blog: TGIF....I Hope

My First MS Blog: TGIF....I Hope: So the sun is shining, the weather is warm and I am loving it! But once again there is this sneaky little condition called MS. I vow it will...